a matter of tolerance
in an emotion state
everythg seems awry
missing the good old times
a facade
disheartening
realization that this is ridiculous
stretching my patience



this girl is dying away slowly
fading away
life has left her shattered





THANKYOUEACHANDEVERYONEOFMYFRIENDS
FORBEINGTHEREFORMEWHENINEEDEDYOUTHEMOST
YOUKNOWWHOYOUAREIDONTNEEDTOLISTOUTNAMES
YOUAREINDEEDTHEPEOPLEILOVEANDNEEDTHEMOST



my friends' kind understanding
patient listening ears
wise advice
heartfelt words


i appreciate all

-jessica fan

what dardar dun like
she's doing way too much..
dardar cant stand it anymore.
she didnt even do the basic

dardar dun like you
- contacting ur ex and other girls
-ego proud
-use money as power
-insensitive
-demanding
-not understanding
-easily affected by other pple's opinions
-immature

she cant live with ppl hu is like dat.
thou she doesnt like to change ppl.
all she ask for is only ask her not to contact her ex
but she doesnt wan to listen.
and character wise.
character don't click.

sigh!! i dunno what else can i say.
hao zi wei zi bah.

more den eva
i didn't know, until u
how diff my life could be
until you, i waited
longing for wat i knew could be
but might never be.. i don't know
i oni knew i could love
with all my soul, mind, n body
den you came from out of nowhere and
i knew in that moment dat u were the one
u filled me wif joy n laughter
u delight my mind
its like so OMG!!
falling! falling!
i stumbled n now i'm falling
descending into a blurred, uncertain future
where light can shimmer n glow
did i stagger on the edge
did i hesitate in the fall
did my eyes falter n my view distort
i fall faster n closer
gliding through unfilled space
towards an uncertain shore
a suspension for an instant
as I contemplate the flight
thou my existence seems to pass
n den i'm falling again
falling in love wif u, my gf =)

I SWEAR I LOVE HER DEARLY
15/1 - went back to help up at TR
i'm such a nice person!! LOL
after work. togetherly wif meimei
down to kovan hongkong cafe
met up wif korkor,zav and gf
heex!! makan makan!!
play play!!
we play monopoly!!
game starts.. korkor and i
buy hotel and houses like nobody buisness..
buy and buy.. korkor kept losing la..
lol! and i bought 3train station at first..
and gf bought 1.. and i need 4train station so
dat when everyone step on my station.. i can collect
200buck.. so i hav a deal wif gf.. she sell me dat station
at the usual price and whenever she step on any station
she don't hav to pay me.. so ended up korkor
give me a name.. 'zhong sir qin you'
THANK YOU THANK YOU...
and tot dat i will be the richer of all.. in the end..
i owe bank 1020 and left with 2dollar..
omgomgomg!!! haha.. but its fun..
2.30am we end the game and headed home..
gf came over to my place.. we hav chatting all night long..
heex.. sweets!! woke up by my cough! argh..
makan med.. den slp again.. woke up at 11plus am..
heex!! play games!! online.. lalala..
eat tgt.. chit chat.. haha.. argh!!
we r reali sweet tgt thou is nth much.. but i'm happy enuff..
lex is a happy girl!!
mabel is a happy girl coz she made lex a happy girl
and lex makes her happy all the time..
gf, i will make u happy every single day..
MUACK!!

ARGHHHH!!!
so not my day
why?
7pm start keying data into
subcon tracking report.
abt 530am stop! in between
i always save the report i key in.
so after i finish my data. i click on
save again to play safe. and i close
every window.. after dat i hav to
send out my report dat i key.
sooooooooo.. to microsoft outlook.
when i want to attach my file..
fuck. i cant find any..
which mean i hav to retype all over again..
like what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well, i type it fast and anyhow.
so i managed to finish up be4 1hour..
and dat fucking back gate at another building
close at 7am.. and i hav to walk one big round to
the front gate. why another building? coz i need to
get back my ID.. argh.. and is rainning like wow!!!

NO work today!! wtf!!
which mean no money..
i miss TR i swear..
i miss NANA owner!!

SICK SICK SICK!!
THE COUGH IS KILLING ME!!!
should i go see a doc?
but gf gave me her med le.. so i shall
not see a doc. tsk!!

* i miss my gf very very much

HAPPY ALRIGHT!!
since new year eve till now.
i'm a happy girl. =)
a girl that simply light up my life.
bring me back to the path
the path which a happy person lead.
well, u might not have the answer now. nvm!
waiting and waiting. no matter what.

100 percent assurence there wont be
any heartbreak.
gf, i promise.

* I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

SAD SAD SAD
bangkok trip is cancelled.
got bomb.. stupid ass..
why bomb? fuck.
bangkok is a nice place
now we got no place to go
malaysia? OUT!
indonesia? STUPID EDWARD DUN WAN
phillipin? nai said wulu
phuket? nai said got tsunami
taiwan? nai said expensive
hongkong? we going on the sep
fucking where else can we go?

guys!! tell me!!
sad!!

happy new year!!!
happy new year frens!!
hav a totally great new year eve.
went ms wif dem dem dem.
happy me..
ton over at mr bean.
laugh my head off..
MR BEAN~
esther,alicia,michelle,jessica and mabel
esther: i go toilet!
alicia: hav u ever think of going into r/s (ask mabel)
mabel: erm, not at the moment.
alicia: so out of the three of us. michelle,esther and me.
who will u choose?
mabel: HUH!
michelle: as in the three of us, who will u choose?
mabel: erm.. uhmm.. ehmmm.. erm..
~ esther walking out from the toilet.................
mabel: hey she come out from the toilet le.. shhhh...
jesscia: ohhhhh i know le!!! LOL!!
alicia and michelle: huh??? huh??? huh???